I thought I should write, just to say hello, just to keep in touch with you. All of you, the people that have kept me afloat. You may not know that, how much it helps me, just to see a like, or a comment. To read along with other people’s blogs, your blogs. To have that connection with you, however big or small it may seem.
And so I have been missing that. The connection. Yes, I have been reading along with you for the most part, but I haven’t written anything at all, no contribution from me for a bit. The last I have said was that I had gotten a job. I am working in a department store at night as a general merchandise stocker. The hours are from 10pm to 6:30am and that is taking some time to get accustomed to. Having a job in general was an adjustment as well. It is a good adjustment. I really like the job and the people I work with. I was nervous in the beginning, mostly because of negative things that people have said to me about my wanting to work and how would I know what it is like. I haven’t worked at a paying job in twenty years.
So here is how I feel about it now. I go to work and I work hard for eight hours. It was a little bit nervous that maybe I wouldn’t be able to do it, but I find going to work and putting in those eight hours is a hell of a lot easier than what I had previously chosen to do with my life. Being a wife, a mother and a home maker. Then being on disability (not a choice). All of that is harder to me than working.
So that is what I have been doing. I have been working and getting used to my new sleep schedule, since I work over nights. I have missed you all, but I find myself staring at the screen in the mornings after work and I can’t think of a thing to say.
And here I am doing it again. Sitting here, staring at the screen, nothing to say.