blood rushing through my veins, pounding in my head,
I step back and hit the wall behind me,
there is no where to go,
this is really happening?
Everything goes silent, everything stops,
if I stand here, nothing can change, can it?
No, this is not happening, this can not be happening,
none of this is true, you lie, I know you lie.
Step away from me, let me away from this wall.
Leave me alone.
How can this be? How could you leave me? And why? Wasn’t I good enough? And you there, God, where were you? Why did you let this happen? Why did you take what I love?
God? Please make this not be true. I will do anything. Anything you want, I will give whatever you want, be whatever you. Please, give me back what I love.
None of it matter anymore, I will just lie here until,
well, I don’t know until when.
But I will just lie here, because I can do nothing else.
I can do nothing without you.
I’m broken somehow and my heart aches
The world seems so dim,
I’m afraid there will never be light again.
I love you and I miss you. I always will. There will always be
a part of me that belongs to you,
some part of you that lives in me,
but today the sun is shining just a little bit brighter
and today I think I can begin to do things on my own.
Today I think I need to start living my life again,
I know that is what you would want.
Until we meet again, I love you.
In response to the December writing challenge. Day 6, The Process.
(Dedicated to Bobby.)