I can’t believe it! Even after I messed up my application, they called just now! I have an interview on Monday at 10am! I’m so excited! I feel like dancing around! Maybe I will!
I realize this doesn’t mean I have the job, but let’s just say this. I can’t really make it much worse in an interview than I did on that application. John jokingly said, at least I hope it was a joke, that maybe they just called me in to see where I have been for the last twenty years! Not funny!
I should really try some way to explain what this means to me. Not having had a paying job in twenty years this is such a huge thing. There are so many reasons why this is good. Feeling good about myself, being around people, the money doesn’t hurt! You see, up until this past few days I wasn’t sure how the situation works out with disability. I thought I had only nine months to be sure if I could do this and that worried me. What if I went ahead and a year later found I couldn’t do it? Well, it turns out that if at any time in the next five years I become disabled again, I won’t have a problem with disability. That gives me safety and takes all the fear away. Or at least it feels that way. I am not nervous or scared anymore at all. I know I can do this, but I wonder if on Monday morning I will be nervous?
Interviews can be nerve wracking. Kind of like you are being judged and I guess you are, in a way. I don’t know what people are looking for at an interview and I am not sure it matters, because all I know how to do is be myself. Not very good at pretending anything. So they either like me or they don’t. I do hope so.
I see this as a great opportunity. I have actually worked for this company before, although it was thirty years ago. It is a good company to work for, with a job that I really enjoyed. So hoping for the best, trying really hard to convince myself I don’t have it yet!