You may or may not know that I have been writing a bi-weekly post for Randoms by a Random the past couple of months. What I have not said is that writing these posts is difficult for me and although I did not realize it would, it seems to be getting harder. This is mostly because I am thinking forward to posts I will be writing.
My story starts so many years ago and a lot of those experiences seem so far away the emotions that they bring up are not quite so raw as more recent experiences that I will be writing about soon.
These emotions can be extremely raw and have a huge effect on my behavior. At times I have feelings of intense anger which of course gives me an attitude problem. I am writing these posts as a way of healing and of raising awareness. I will not stop, but I have decided that I will have to vent these feelings in writing, here on my blog.
I really believe that I need to show someone other than John that I am angry.