If I could change anything in my life, it would be to never touch alcohol or stimulants. That includes, caffeine, nicotine, stimulants such as Ritalin and cocaine. It has been almost 20 years since I have touched cocaine, 8 years I have been prescribed Ritalin. It has been 6 and a half years since I have touched alcohol, although I haven’t had a problem with that in 20 years.
Five days ago I woke up, took a sip of my coffee and got sick to my stomach. I poured out the coffee and got a cup of tea instead. Two days later I decided to try coffee again, took one sip and got sick again. It has now been two days since and I haven’t had coffee, don’t plan on it. I know tea has caffeine in it as well, but it doesn’t bother my stomach and for some reason the caffeine doesn’t affect me the same as coffee.
The problem now seems to be that I find myself relaxing and staring at the wall, day dreaming. I don’t have a nervous bone in my body. I am jello with out coffee.