In his comment on my post “At a loss” , Colin asked if maybe I was expecting to much. I responded by saying I didn’t think so.
I continued to think over his question and I suppose in some sense I am. I am looking for enough good in people to change my perspective and I’m left wondering now, why isn’t it good enough? Why isn’t it good enough that there is so much good in John? Why isn’t it good enough that there is so much good in the two women in my life? Why isn’t it good enough to know that there was good in the people I met along the way?
What is it that I am expecting that is to much? I’m expecting some kind soul to perform some wonderful act of random kindness that I happen to witness. As a result, I expect my faith in God and man to be miraculously healed, this ache in my heart to disappear.
We know this won’t happen. I know what it takes is time, acceptance and being able to look at the situation from a perspective of compassion.
Thank you Colin for reminding of this. You gave me some hope, I’m just not there yet…